I don’t know what to write and where to start from. Right now it’s raining heavily outside and I’m simply pondering over my past. Yes, rains have always been my good friend and they do make me go nostalgic. It takes me back to the past. It makes me think over my present that would eventually shape my future. One can say that it simply sets a mood for introspection.
This pondering takes me on a journey through all those rains that I’ve cherished in the past; each of them leaving an impression on my mind. I don’t know what the connection is! It’s not that events haven’t occurred to me otherwise. But the ones during rains always leave behind that mark at the back of my mind like the moist smell after the rains.
Clouds come floating into my life, no longer to carry rain or usher storm, but to add colour to my sunset sky
This saying by Sir Rabindranath Tagore goes well for me. Those days of classroom during school as well as college and graduation ones, when it used to rain heavily and make the atmosphere drowsy, used to actually put my body to rest and mind working. Those times of my biggest crush during the college days, my interaction with my best friend regarding the dilemma of his relationship, those times of sitting home and watching TV when everything outside is shut down, that instant urge to get wet in rains all of a sudden during a walk with my best friend, those days when I was free enough to constantly be in a spiritual company which I desire even today. All these moments, yet today, comes ahead in front of the eyes like a flash and brings a smile on my face, and rains have always been a “cherry on the top” to these memories :-).
And when it rains on your parade, look up rather than down. Without the rain, there would be no rainbow
-Gilbert k. Chesterton
Few events feel childish or funny or immature even today. But then, I feel having experienced these days has probably made me and brought me where I am today. I feel everything happens for a reason. Every moment of our life plays some or the other role in shaping our ideologies, and our future and destiny eventually. Nothing goes waste. Every moment reaps its own fruits at the right time and the right place. Hence what is essential is to live every moment. Feel it. Experience it in totality. If it’s something wrong or immoral, realise it that moment itself, analyse it and forgive yourself. Unless you do that, you won’t be able to move on.
Simply go with the flow like the rains do. Only keep one thing in mind that every thought and every action must be for your inner development. It must not harm the quality of unconditional love that is within each of us. Like the rains, this love needs to be showered upon everyone around us equally. In fact, our actions should only nourish it and help it flourish. It could take time. It will take time. But patience is the key. In fact, if these actions cannot nurture that love, then they must not affect our morality and values at least.
These rains are probably the best times I always crave for, for these help me calm down my mind and makes me take a rest psychologically and puts me into a “thinking mode” about life in general; about what I need to achieve, what kind of person I need to become and in which direction I’m actually moving in correspondence to the kind of person I wish to become. It helps me slow down amidst the hassles of this life, introspect and make a diversion in the right direction.
Like me, all of you can look for that rain in your life. Everyone sees it differently. For me it’s the rains. For someone else, something else could work and prove effective. No
matter what it is, it should be a life changer for you. It should be a boon for you, a motivation for you and a catalyst in your life that would make the right chemical reaction in the exact needed amount.
Into each life, some rain must fall
-Henry Wadsworth Longfellow